I had a Dream where I was a clown named patches and they played a game of the Floor is lava, where the last person standing got the power of free will and I won. Then there was a show and I decided to sit out along with this other guy and a bunch of other people. There was the target clowns , and then my group , which were the clover clowns. And they were performing the guy next to me. Telling you to tell me a secret that he had a magic power I asked him if he was the power of free will and he said yes and I said I did too. He asked me how I won it. I told him by watching my sister burning the lava. He then persuaded to bunch of the clowns that I committed murder, and I traced him around trying to explain that it was a game of floor is lava. The conductor let us go. People are laughing. Then the conductor tells us to stop. And one of the ladies asked why my name is patches and the conductor says because I'm ugly but really wanna be beautiful. She says, but she isn't ugly, she's pretty.
Dreams that involve whimsical elements like clowns can often symbolize a playful or lighthearted aspect of yourself, but they can also represent deeper feelings about identity, social roles, and personal struggles. Let's break down different elements of your dream:
Being a Clown Named Patches: The name "Patches" suggests a sense of being pieced together or perhaps feeling inadequate in some way. Clowns often represent both humor and hidden emotions, which could imply that you have layers to your personality not fully recognized or accepted.
The Game of Floor is Lava: Games can symbolize challenges you face in waking life. "The Floor is Lava" indicates a precarious situation where careful navigation is required. Winning the game may represent overcoming obstacles or feeling in control of your choices, especially with the power of free will at stake.
Sitting Out of the Show: Choosing to sit out might suggest a desire for distance from certain social situations or performance expectations. It could reflect feelings of being an outsider or not wanting to engage in what others are doing.
The Target Clowns vs. Clover Clowns: This division may symbolize anxiety about acceptance and belonging. The "target clowns" may represent societal pressures or negative influences, while your group, the "clover clowns," symbolizes a desire for a supportive community.
The Secret of Magic Power: The concept of free will in your dream implies a desire for autonomy and control over your life. The interaction with the other clown highlights your awareness of the balance of power and possibly the doubts about how you obtained your freedom.
Accusations of Murder: The accusation of murder suggests feelings of guilt or being unfairly judged. It may indicate a fear that your actions or choices could be misinterpreted or judged harshly by others.
The Conductor’s Comment: This part reflects inner criticism and insecurities about self-image. The conductor's remark about being "ugly but wanting to be beautiful" reveals a struggle with self-acceptance, which resonates with many people's feelings about their self-worth.
Reassurance from the Lady: The lady's response that you aren’t ugly suggests a craving for affirmation and validation from others, indicating that you may seek reassurance in your relationships or from society at large.
Overall, your dream reflects themes of self-identity, the struggle for acceptance, navigating social dynamics, and the quest for personal freedom. It could highlight a need for confidence in your uniqueness and working through self-doubt, as well as the desire for supportive connections amidst challenges. Reflecting on these elements may help you understand your feelings and circumstances in waking life better.